Siblings

WH - my one and only elder brother.
He's working at Kuching currently. I do miss him!
His non-present in the house made me much quiet.
I miss his voices ( he's the activation bomb in the house.. )
miss his playful-ness, miss his serious-ness.
He made my dad the only man in the house now! haha


SF - my elder sister.
She's still in KL, living a usual life with her boyfriend.
I'm not fond with him.
I felt strange in him.
There's a gap between us.
Just can't click together...
Sooner, my sis gonna marry him.. She'll be leaving the house too..


SY - my younger sister.
She's still studying.
Still young.
Still playful.

SH - me.
in a state of "sibling-sick"

guilty

After a long run in my life( not exactly long run.. *exaggerated* )
finally i'm sitting on a chair and doing some updates.

tonight, i was overloaded. i ate too much. my sisters went to "pasar malam" and they bought so many delicious stuff. i simply can't resist them even though i had my dinner.

my mum will be flying off to Kuching tomorrow morning for the first ever "Qing Ming-ing" of my beloved grandpa's tomb.

I think i'm too selfish sometime. I'm only remembering my mum's dad but not my dad's dad.
Who am i?

an ordinary and yet selfish girl.
I've never attend any "Qing Ming" activities of my dad's daddy. I don't even know who is he... He had passed away ages ago since i'm arriving this planet. My dad did not force me to go either. I felt guilty as i grown.

updating soon ~

too buzy with life!!!

一句话

今天在朋友家借宿。

想回 31-12-2008 的夜晚，我们家接到一通惊人的来电，
得知外公入院了，情况很不乐观。

妈禁不起泪水的考验，泪不停的流下。
我看在眼里，也不知觉受到感染了。

"妈妈，您要坚强啊!" 我好希望对妈说的一句话。

从小，我就是个弱者，遇到任何不愉快的事就会掉泪，
稀少机会去安慰任何人。
也许如此，我才不知该如何安慰他人。我真的不擅长!
很多话想说，却吃了黄连似的，开不了口。
每当遇见掉泪或垂丧的人，我都束手无策。
说一句有那么难吗?

这就是我。

"要坚强" - 我老是对自己说。
结果?
我有变了吗?

我只知道哭是解决不到事情的。
想想自己也很久没痛快大哭一场了。

"坚强的活下吧!"